A conversation with an old friend has revved me up with emotions. The chaotic kind. And that for my already bogged with chaos mind isn't such a good thing.
I hate feeling confused, and for someone who's confused almost all the time, admitting being confused has got to be serious trouble.
For a minute, I even miss the superficial nods because beyond all the egos and competition, I also had fun with this friend. And I miss that fun.
I wonder now, should I forgive the things done by this friend that defied every ounce of my definition of friendship? Should I redefine my definition? Or should I just understand that that's the best It can get with friendship, and in the end, everyone's the same.
And then.. while writing an overly depressing blog post, a friend sent me a good morning msg, and a friend came online just when i need her.. and I know I'm muuuucchhh better off than being around something made up...:)
even i am confused all the time so u r not alone....i dont know what should i be doing after my engg and all that stuff.....not everyone has the ability to forgive others....it is a gr8 virtue...it heals u personally...i dont know what happened between u and ur friend....
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