So here I am, just finished crying a lot of tears out, because just a few minutes ago, I was feeling completely and totally neglected. reasons for which are to be kept with me, its like my pain is my light, and the more its my own, the stronger I feel. So anyway, here I was, shedding those tears and crying away to glory, when Ess called and I felt so much lighter hearing his voice...somehow having stopped my tears I happened to take a look at a few "Blogs Of Note" and suddenly I felt my spirits lifting.
I realised then, two things:
1] Its amazing how much writing can affect us!
2] Life is so much nicer when you eliminate the rough edges, ignore them maybe? Or just let go, pick up the pieces and run!
Things can be bad, but while there are so many people so much more deserving than I am to live, are battling for their lives, I am happy today, to be alive! I'm at the threshold of my life..things are just beginning and the beginning is always a little edgy , its like .. blowing a bubblegum for the first time and the second and the third and maybe even the tenth.. its a little hard...[I did everything I could to avoid using the bicycle analogy! But I think this one serves the purpose well doesn't it?] I think sometimes even today, blowing that perfect bubblegum bubble takes a lot tries! So I'm going to focus on the finer things, make the most of my happy mood swings ;) Right now, I feel a little like the first time I read Rhonda Byrne's The Secret..overwhelmed with positive energy, happy and somewhat looking forward! Although right now the extent of those emotions is much much scaled down, but I feel those emotions none the less!
So here's to my new blog alter-ego, welcome to You Win Some, You Lose Some, But you're Alive! So it's okay, just pick up the pieces and run! :) :)
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